I mentioned that I don't typically make resolutions, but will sometimes choose a goal or a theme. I've known for a few months now that I was going to have to work to better de-stress my life. When I can feel the physical effects of stress on my system, I know it's time to do something.
The question is - what?
Let me back up just a bit. I've been a writer and a journaler (not to be confused with a journalist) ever since I can remember. There have been dry spells, certainly, when life was just too mundane or depressing to keep track of, but for the most part I have kept either a journal or a blog for the most of the last 30 years. One thing I have never done is journal in any deliberately therapeutic way. Mooning over teenage crushes doesn't count, and besides, my sister stole that journal years ago and threatened to pass it around on the bus. Me, need therapy?
It might surprise you (or not) to know that I'm a sucker for "finding your path*" and "40 days to work you love" type books. I've had a ton of them over the years, each one pretty much the same as the next. I've even been through that dreadful Purpose Driven Life book (it took me a little over an hour standing at the book table at BJs Wholesale I certainly wasn't going to add more money to fundy coffers) and that told me a whole lot of nothing. The result is almost always the same - I quit when it gets to the journalling part because:
A. It's too much work and requires too much discipline to keep up with
B. This $%!# is way too New Agey for me
C. If God has a purpose for my life or wants me to do things for his glory, it would be nice it he would tell me what the hell those things were so I could quit wasting my time dabbling.
D. There is no path, just a series of detours. Especially with kids
(screaming and fighting in the car).
E. I'm not going to write in this book, that would ruin it!
Ok, yeah. See! I have a really hard time taking this seriously. The truth is, I tend to be on several paths at once. Managing them all or getting them to merge is what stresses me out.
But I do have to get serious about this. While most people are making goals in the next couple of days, I know that I cannot fit another thing on my plate, yet there is so much more I want to do. This year is probably not going to be a gaining ground year, we'll be very lucky if it's not a losing ground year.
So, although I don't intend to have this effort totally consume my blog, I have this tool, I might as well try to use it. So, more on these efforts to come.